Teritorial

Have you ever noticed how people seemingly never talk to you? You may think well why shouldn't they, i'm great! But everyone is pretty much the same. Afraid of change, unable to try new things, don't want to look into the unknown. The idea of 'clicks' in the social spectrum have merely formed due to peoples' comfort zones, and i for one like my comfort zone, A LOT. But there are times i feel less popular or not having people converse with me, yes maybe being in the 'lower' social satus dictates the matter, but the matter of fact is that 'higher' status don't open up to you either. Sure they are louder and more foward at times but they never instigate a conversation. Why? Because they are just the same as you. Yes it is annoying in the world of communication, that people "don't" communicate. For example facebook, how many of your hundreds of friends do you actually talk to? Out of the say 300 friends i have only 1 of them openly starts a conversation with me, anyone else and it is up to me. Pisses me off? Yes it does. Why didn't you like our previous conversations...i think you did. Teritory what's mine, isn't yours! Demonstrated perfectly in the classroom when you decide to sit somewhere different, all hell breaks loose as you are not meant to be there. Everyone is equal but no-one wants to accept it.

Step Up

i have just got back from doing something ive bin dreaming of doing. i am on a high. a buzz of happiness. i have never been so happy. it is quite hard to describe how i feel right now. i feel more fulfilled than i would after sex, thats how good its is.

ur all probs wondering wat it is that ive gone and done. well im not going to say. only two people know, and they know who they are.

i do urge u all to step up and go do something uve always wanted to do. no matter what. its the best feeling ever. do it, do it now! (thats wat she said lol)

"Naomi" or "She Out Of My League"

for the first time in my life i have written a song, in which the lyrics i actually like. and for that matter i waish to share them with u. tho im dont know wat to call the song. im stuck between "shes out of my league" or to name it after the girl who inspired the song "naomi" but yes here are the lyrics, dont know wat the presentation is gunna look like but still.

She has the looks of a model, and the pictures to prove it.
Partys most night, so she knows hows to move it.
Lets her hair down, she definately knows how to lose it.
With loads of guys around her, bet she knows how to do it.

But what does that matter, how does it help me.
As an on looker, will she ever here my plee.
Wanting to ask her out, maybe go get some coffee.
Or even expand, and go see a movie.

But why would she care, i'm not even her type.
I've written this song, instead of having a good fight.
It's like giving her red wine, wen you know she likes white.
It's that kind of situation, i have no right.

So the way she moves her hips, its always a big tease.
And spending time with her, would just clearly please.
But its such a shame, i know that it cant be.
As i've come to the conclusion, that shes out of my league.

(then finish of with some "la la la"s)

i am thining of putting a chorus in, but for once i dont know how to get into one.

oh and lesley if uve read this, ive posted this at 11:45am, theres a funny timeing system lol

New Year and Insignificance

well it is 2009. i bet u ill write 2008 on the exam papers.

i did end up doing something last year. i went out with wat in a sense is my second family, and we saw australia. no not the county, the movie. it was the best movie of 2008 for me (as it was the one that stood out the most "brackets again" and the fact that i cant remember any other movies) sure i cried but that shows how amazing it was. its got everything, action for the boys and hue jackmans chest for the ladies.

afterwards we went across the road to franky and bennys. i was so hungry i ate a 10 inche margarita in like 5 mins, plus a bowl of chips and watever was going on anybody elses plates. then i had desert.

then headed back home to have a few drinks and exchange some texts. also to wat was a rather funny talk with my uncle who was back in birmingham for the new year, and he had got absolutly smashed. wen he spoke it was all slurred, a typical drunk mans voice.

insignificant, we can all feel insignificant locally and globally. i mean while quite alot of people were out partying i was at home, i felt insignificant. but then out whole island is insignificant, we celebrated the new year, but little do we notice, australia has already been in the new year for hours.

new years resolutions, they are all personal challenges, yes ive challenged myself to something this year. but those personal changes are insignificant to the world. as we lead our insignificant lives, complaing, loving, moving, enjoying, we are not making any great deal effect to the world. in hide sight we are therefore all selfish. wat will it take for someone to do something significant. now us as individuals cant do anything. but those individuals who have the power to do something, never do anything. again they focus on their own problems. wat about africa? wen will their debt be wiped? not like we need the money, the rich bastards just want more money. for christmas tom cruise spents thousands and thousands of pounds on wrapping paper and little ornaments to go on top of his presents to katy holmes. wat a selfish act i say. that money cud have been given to a town in africa and revitalised it, and with money to spare.

oh the credit crunch, we all gunna die. no we are not. no we are all gunnna be fine. people in africa have been in serious trouble for years. and once a year we give them some money which they then have to give straight back to us. NO! wipe the debts and watch how a good country it becomes.

now im only one insignificant person, i cant do much. im not asking for us to change the world, but for us all to stop complaining about our "crappy" lives. they are not crappy they are way better than u think.

i would change the world, but i wudnt know where to start, as so much of it needs changing.

Skinny jeans

yes ive finally caught onto the cult that is 'the skinny jean'

i must say its a shock to the system wen u first put them on. the space u get from a normal jean is suddenly unheard of in the world of skinny jeans. though they are stretchy so i spose that makes up for it.

i sit here in my skinny jeans listening to the jonas brothers, because clothes have finally become part of my life. just as music did (hence the jonas brothers). clothes to me used to be just something i had to wear to go out in public, cuz it is forbidden to go out in the nude, its politically incorrect and frowned upon. but yes i am now more conscious of wat im wearing, all be it i dont know how to wear it, i just want to wear it. this means a whole new wardrobe hehe. but one step at a time.

Boredness

ur probs thinkin its the 27th, a few days after christmas, how in the hell could someone be bored. yep there u sit reading the upand coming statement of 'calum's boredness'.

yes folks im bored. i hate it when im bored as i have no sense of purpose or idea of wat to do. nothing attracts me with the power to banish the boredom with the sword of enjoyment.

my boredom started early this morning 00:01 roughly. we had had guest over and now i was left on my own. i just sat in my room, spining in circle wondering if anything would kill the boredom. eventually i ended up organising my clothes in my draws. but yes i went to sleep after that.

but as i sit here on the floor, i am bored. i dont know why and i dont know how to cure it. so i thought lets write on my blog that should pass the time. i guess its just something that happens. trying to think of something clever to say has failed me.....oh god!

sitting here ripping cds onto the laptop has "entertained" me for the past 2 hours. but even its brilliance (i know watching a bar go up to 100% is at the top of everyone to-do lists) has worn off.

when u are bored u really do feel alone (wether thats just me i dont know). but yeah.....now im just struggling for words now.

im sorry but if u weigh it up the majority of my blogs are miserable complaining manescripts from a rubbish bin. i dont know why again, it just happens. well ive always seen it that u learn the most about a person through the bad times rather than the good times. cuz the good times are really just sailing with a good wind pushing u along (im sure roise will tell u the deffinition of that phrase) sure its extremely fun, yet its easy, no effort is required.

as for me right now ive decided i need to get out of the house. yet theres noone to go out with, and i dont want to go out on my own and cerment the fact that im a loner.

Sorry to keep you waiting

yes i know its been a while. yet even doing this now, i feel ive got nothing to say. spose xmas is something to mention. it really shows the difference between male and female. all this week the girls have been exchanging gifts and worst of all, some of those gifts have bin opened. grrrrr. ive had 3 cards woop woop. and im gunna get a present from an annoying person, you know who he is, those who know. lol.

i have come through the depression that seem to be around in my last blogs. yet i still seem to have no purpose. oh well its the hols soon so i can regroup and recover. recover mainly cuz my body's just given way, as ive been ill the past to day and even now into the present/future. i hope i increase in my illness as its carol service, the worst school event ever, even speech day beats it.

cough cou COUGH! excuse me. even being ill effects ur typing.